Date: Sat, 1 Mar 2008 09:18:58 -0800 (PST) From: Sunil Narayan Subject: "He Needs Me" He Needs Me Sitting here in my chair waiting for David to come home from prison The words he said to me last night when I saw him were sweet and caring And I tried to hold back my tears as he went back to his cell His hands cuffed in front of him and his eyes looking tired and sad I tried to smile to let him know I am thinking of him He can't know how I feel otherwise he'll be more depressed As a wife I know my duty to David I stand by his side no matter what happens David's getting in trouble with the law happened because of his foolish decisions in the drug-dealing business After months of trying to get him off cocaine I gave up He won't listen to me and I used to walk back and forth along the hallways late at night wondering where he was Lord knows the things he did at that time! Now it has been three years since I've made him a meal and done his laundry The night before I took out my cookbook It hasn't been used in months I made simple dishes I learned from my mother to help me get by The rest of the recipes I created for him David's favorite dish is chicken makhani I had to go to the store, buy the ingredients and make the dish before 8:00 It took me a few hours and luckily I had enough time to make myself look good I put my long hair in a bun and adorn it with his favorite flower, the red rose I wore the moonstone necklace he gave me for my birthday When he came home I ran into his arms and hugged him tightly My eyes released many tears of joy and sadness Oh how I missed my husband! His hands caressed my cheeks and he sniffed my hair He said, "You smell good babe". I giggled and looked into David's eyes Oh! They showed how much he missed me! My hands resting on his chest, he didn't let me go We stood there for a while and forgot the aroma emanating from the kitchen Even though he was hungry I could tell he wanted me more than anything David picked me up in his arms and carried me to our room The night we spent making up for lost time The time I could have sat in his lap listening to him talk about work and whatnot His hands touched me roughly At first I tried to get away because they looked unwashed Then he grasped my arms tightly and pulled me under him His smell was a mixture of sweat and cigarette smoke David didn't want to make love He wanted to repossess me Being away for so long made him feel insecure about our relationship And to ravish me would make him feel confident about having me as a wife