Date: Tue, 19 Feb 2008 14:19:57 -0800 (PST) From: Writer M Subject: Luke's Awakening 3 Disclaimer: This is a story depicting acts of a sexual nature between two males if it is illegal in your state to view this story , or you are underage please stop reading If you like this story please let me know. At writerm25@yahoo.com and even more than a comment I would love it if you would sign my petition at www.ipetitions.com/petitions/nukelove/ supporting Noah and Luke on at the world turns. Which is what inspired me to write this story, please enjoy J Luke's Awakening Part 3 Noah did not know how to react to what he had just seen. Luke fell to the floor pale and cold, and his dad, his dad did it! This never would have happened if he had not let himself fall for Luke. It is all my fault Noah thought, if I had never come to Oakdale then this would never have happened. Luke would be better off if he left town. Why would Luke want to be with someone with a father like his? A father who would rather see Luke dead rather than see his son happy. Noah walked for what seemed like hours until he came to the lake. At the edge of the lake he stopped looking into the water. He no longer saw himself but the face of his father staring back at him. The look in his eyes as he looked back at his over his shoulder to tell Noah to get out if there. He saw hate, not just hate for Luke but for all that Noah was. Toward the feeling of love that Noah had on his face. Feelings that he had never expressed with his dad. The one feeling seen in his face that even if Noah had ran would never leave the colonels mind, love. Anger flowed out of him with uncontrolled force. For the first time since he had gotten away from the colonel he had time to think. The tears flowed, tears of both anger and loss. He had lost his father and his love interest in one afternoon. Luke would never forgive him, he had no choice he had to leave. Oakdale was no longer his home. Just like on the base the only way for him to live would be to leave. But before he could pack up his gear his cell phone range. Noah looked at screen it was Dusty Donovan . Dusty was one person besides Maddie Coleman who wholeheartedly supported Luke and Noah as a couple. Noah had no idea why Dusty had taken a liking to him, Noah was surprised that dusty was calling. The colonel had tried to kill him too, but he was just glad to have someone to talk to. "Hello?" Noah said "Hey Noah, it's Dusty Donovan will you meet me at the Lakeview for coffee?" "Sure Dusty." Noah replied. "See you soon." Noah got into his truck and drove to the Lakeview. As he drove the only thing that he could see is the look on Luke's face as he began to run. The determination in his eyes shocked Noah, he saw a part of Luke that he had never knew existed. In the blink of an eye the fear in his face transformed into want, a want to live, to love, to fight. He knew at that moment that Luke was strong. He possessed a courage that the people that Noah grew up with never had. Noah saw it in his face even as he fell to the ground. A kind of fearlessness that even the most highly trained army recruit did not have. It was deep inside of him, it could not be taught . Only given, given though living life. A life of hardships and suffering. Luke had waited for Noah to love him and Noah knew that, but he had never wanted Luke to cone in harms way for him. As pulled into the parking lot of the Lakeview hotel tried to clear his mind. He sat at the table and waited for Dusty to arrive. The whole scene replayed itself in his mind. Especially the words that his dad had said "Noah just remember that everything that I have done is because I love you." If that was what he did " because he loved me" Noah thought, Why stay in Oakdale? His dads brand of love was a danger to anyone that came close to Noah. Just when Noah stood up to leave dusty walked into the lounge. "Noah, sit down." Dusty said. Noah ordered a vanilla latte. "Hey dusty?" Noah said "Yeah" dusty replied. "How could you have anything to do with me after what my dad did to you?" Noah asked. Look kid, you are not your dad! Dusty said with the most comforting and reassuring tone that he had herd in what seemed like a long time. Plus I could use all of the friends that I can get. Dusty finished. Noah have the heard anything about Luke? Dusty asked No I haven't. Noah answered, Is he ok? He is stable but it won't be easy, if he dose not have you there by his side. Me? How could he want me anywhere near him now? Noah asked, Especially when I am the reason that he is in the hospital? First of all it was not you that put Luke in that hospital bed, it was your dad. Dusty replied. It was because of me that my dad shot him! It was because I love him. Look, Noah Luke needs you now more than ever. Dusty replied. He needs your love! Dusty I think that it is best for everyone in Oakdale if I left, I mean my dad is still on the loose and there is No telling what he will do next. Noah said. So your just going to turn tail and leave? Dusty asked take the cowards way out huh? Now you sound like my dad. Noah replied I talked to Lilly and she said that Luke really needs you. Lilly said that really? Noah asked Yeah, she did and she is right, he needs you. Noah it's up to you, fight for love of spend the rest of your life running from it. Dusty said. Dusty got up from the table. And left Noah feeling alone. What would he do? If he stayed there was always the chance that colonel Meyer would return. Noah saw a bottle of vodka on the bar he picked it up and left the Lakeview and went to downtown Oakdale. He sat on the bench outside of the coffee shop drinking away the events of the past day, drinking away the pain and the sorrow. Why did love have to hurt so much? It was so much simpler when he was with Maddie. He did not love her but, his dad would love him and life could go back to normal! Hey there Noah! Maddie said. She sat down. Noah put the bottle of vodka in his pocket. Hi, Maddie Noah replied. So what are you doing Maddie questioned. What do you mean? Noah asked I mean that I thought that you would be at the hospital with Luke. Maddie answered I, I just can't Maddie. Noah said guilt built up in him Oh, ok, hey Noah? Yeah Maddie. Noah said It seems that we have more in common than the movies huh?, I mean we both have murderous family members. And we both were hurt by those people we trusted. Maddie said Noah nodded his response. Well there is one thing that I know, in times like these people like us shouldn't be alone. Noah Meyer if you are not going to see Luke than you are coming with me. They went back to Maddie's room and she went to get a movie. She knew that if anyone would get his mind off of Luke it would be Clark Gable. She grabbed the movie and turned down the lights. Noah had pulled out the vodka, he could not forget this day but maybe he could numb his feelings if only for a brief space of time. Maddie looked at Noah with the bottle in his hand. She remembered when Luke was in the hospital for kidney failure and she didn't want Noah to go down that road. Noah, what are you doing? Maddie I just want my life back! I want us back, I want you back. Noah leaned forward and kissed Maddie hoping that all of his problems would dissolve. He felt nothing, no love, no emotion, no yearning. Absolutely nothing! Maddie pushed Noah away. At one time she would have welcomed Noah's kiss, but now she knew better. The reason that he had not been close to her was not because he was distant. It was because he loved Luke, and that was where he belonged. Noah, you can't, we can't!" Maddie said Why not? You were happy with us weren't you? Maddie wait a moment before responding. Wondering weather to answer. To speak the whole truth or leave some of his dignity intact. Yes Noah, but I have one question. Maddie replied. Do you love Luke? Maddie asked. Yes but I don't want him to be hurt again! "Well that is where you need to be, not here. You need to be with him." "But we were so good together Maddie." "Yes, but that was before you found your true love. And if there is one thing that I know, it is that until you are with him your heart will ache every moment that you are apart. Even if the events that occurred today had never happened you were going to have to make this choice sooner or later, now Noah go and be with Luke." Maddie said. Noah knew that Maddie was right. Fear set in and her wanted to run, but he knew that he needed Luke even if Luke might not want to see him right now he had to try! He wanted Luke more than ever and he was not going to loose him, not when he knew that life without him would be misery. Noah threw the vodka in the garbage before entering the hospital. His fear intensified with every step. At the registration desk Noah grabbed a peppermint, he stood outside of room 103. Fear flowed through him like a rushing current. How could Noah ever allow himself to be loved by Luke? He was the cause of the condition that he was in. He feared being turned away. He feared that he would never be able to truly receive love, this caused deep conflict within Noah. Should he go on loving Luke or just simply go on? He saw the sleeping face of the man that he loved. The pain was overwhelming Noah had to go, where he did not know but he had the go. Noah walked past Luke as his hand brushed against his Luke's and Luke started to leave. He opened the door as Luke began to wake up from the meds. Noah heard his moan, the room was dark Noah stood in the shadows. Luke spoke . "Noah!, I need you Noah." Luke said Noah did not know how to react. He needed Luke too but as long as the was around Luke was in danger. Noah opened the door and left the room. Luke fell back asleep. Noah left the hospital. Outside of the room a dark and dangerous figure stood the lights were turned on and that awakened Luke. His vision was blurry, as Luke looked around he saw that it was colonel Meyer he had returned to finish what he had started. In his hand was a syringe filled with a massive amount of sedative enough to kill Luke. Fear overtook Luke but he could not move, he could barely whisper "No, colonel Meyer don't." "Son I am doing this for your own good." Colonel Meyer said Luke Lay there drowsy and unable to move, he did not want to die not like this! He tried to move but the medication forced him to lay there in total fear. He could only watch as the syringe get closer to his arm. Every inch seemed to move slower than time itself. Luke looked at the colonel in the eyes, if he was to die he would look his killer in the eyes. As the door closed Lilly was rounding the corner. Lilly saw colonel Meyer standing over Luke. Colonel was speaking as Luke looked at him in sheer panic, that is when she saw the syringe! No, Luke! Lilly screamed she grabbed colonel Meyer's arm trying to stop him. They turn around and colonel Meyer had pinned Lilly against the wall, Lilly was powerless unable to move. The colonel held Lilly with one hand and the syringe with the other. Dusty Donovan entered the room pulling colonel away from Lilly, Dusty swung connecting with the colonels face. The colonel fell to the ground Meyer this is your last murder in Oakdale!" Dusty said. The security guard entered the room and grabbed colonel Meyer "He tried to kill my son!" Lilly said. As they escorted him out of the room. "Oh my gosh Lilly!" said as colonel Meyer glared back at Luke. A few hours later Luke woke up. His mind running a million miles an hour, he saw flashes of colonel Meyer's face. The whole ordeal was hazy. He remembered the syringe and his mom but nothing after, he remembered the brush of what felt like Noah's hand against his and he suddenly felt lonelier than before. In that room which smelt like sick people and plastic sheets. Noah was all that Luke had in life. Luke knew that but. who would want someone whom had no possibility of pleasing him physically? Who couldn't walk of even feel the slightest touch? Luke began to cry, his life might as well be over! He needed Noah but the main question that remained in Luke's mind was would Noah want him? There was a knock at the door. It was Doctor Hughes and the physical therapist Patrick, Patrick was about twenty nine with natural strawberry blond hair he was six feet tall with a swimmers build and emerald green eyes that seemed to sparkle like gems themselves were placed in his eyes Great, this is just great, someone to tell me how useless I am! Luke thought Hi Luke! How are you feeling? Doctor Hughes asked. You mean besides the fact that I can't feel my legs? Luke replied sarcastically Well yes. Answered Doctor bob smiled trying to lighten the mood. Well Luke, I am Patrick O'Neal the hottest P.T. this side of Oakdale Luke burst into laughter as Patrick smiled Well not that we have my hotness out of the way, down to business. Patrick said I am going to ask you to do some things that may seem stupid but they are necessary Ok Luke answered Luke try to move your toes on you right foot. Patrick asked Luke tried and nothing happened Try again Patrick said. He did and again nothing happened I am trying and why is nothing happening? Luke asked. It was as if he was not even there. Like an out of body experience the only thing different was that Luke was not at peace, his head hurt as if it was in conflict with his body. Every possible neuron firing but no response from his body. Just be patient Patrick said. Patient, `just be patient' he says what the hell did he know about being patient? Luke thought had he every waken up from being shot? Had he ever not been able to walk? Luke did not think so! Unlike most people who go to the operating table knowing the possible outcome, Luke had just went fishing and the last thought that would have entered his mind was "hmm I wonder if I will be shot today?" Luke hated Winston Meyer! He wished that he could wake up and feel nothing, absolutely nothing! Now the other, Patrick asked. Nothing happened. Was this the stupidest thing that Luke ever had to go through. He just wanted his life to end, as far as he was concerned it already had. No more sports, no more walking, no more anything! Hey, Luke can you feel this? Patrick asked. Patrick touched his right foot Feel what? Luke answered. what is the point of this anyway? Luke asked Well Luke, I know that this is hard on you but there is hope. This may not be permanent Patrick said Luke thought that he should have stopped at `but there is hope' but no he just had to keep talking! I have come up with some exercises for you to do. Patrick said they may seem like a pain in the butt now but the sooner that you start using those legs of yours, the sooner that you will be able to recover. Patrick handed Luke a copy of the exercises that he was to do. Some of them seemed easy, mainly because they were ones that he had done in weight lifting class like bicep curls but the only difference was the person on the paper was using some type of green rubber band looking thing. What is the rubber band for? Luke asked It actually is a resistance band there are different colors because they are for different levels of physical strength. They are really pretty cool! Patrick answered And then there were the exercises that he knew that he could not do alone. Like the leg strengthening exercises. And for some unknown reason he thought of Noah holding onto his leg pushing and pulling, he soon pushed that out of his mind. He wanted that but did Noah? Now Luke don't give up! Dr. Hughes said when he saw the look on Luke's face change from hopeful to despair. There was another knock at the door. This time it was Luke's mom Lilly Hey Luke! Lilly said she came in with a plate of chocolate chip cookies from his grandma Emma, the smell reminded Luke of Snyder farm. Dr. Hughes and Patrick left the room Luke have you seen Noah? Lilly asked. The receptionist told me that he came to see you. Really?, Why would he want to see me? Luke asked Luke I know what you are thinking, Noah deeply cares for you why wouldn't he want to see you? Mom look at me! Luke said I am no good to him now! Luke that is for Noah to decide. And why would he come if he did not care for you? "Remorse." Luke mumbled Luke! Lilly said What mom, it's true! Luke said No it's not, if he cares for me why didn't he stay here? Lilly said Well you're going to have to ask him yourself. Lilly said. What do you mean mom? Luke asked Look, Luke he is going to come back just trust me. Lilly said Ok, if you say so Luke said. Lilly kissed Luke on his forehead. I have to go run some errands but I will be back, ok? Ok mom see you later. Luke Luke just wanted to sleep but he did not want to miss Noah if he came back. All of the meds that he was on disagreed with him. He fell asleep again. Noah went back to the hospital he did not know why but he needed Luke. He needed to be with him. Even if that meant that he was with him every moment of the day. He walked into the room he smelled the cookies that Emma made. He looked at the bed and saw Luke sleeping. Luke looked so peaceful, he could only wish that he could have half of the courage that Luke had. Noah sat down in the chair next to Luke's bed. He wanted him needed to touch him! Even if only for a moment. He reached over and grabbed Luke's hand . He felt so bad about the whole situation, even though everyone said it was not his fault, he felt like he should be in that bed instead of Luke. Luke I am so sorry! Noah said. I should have known that my dad would never change, how could I have been so stupid? Luke I just don't want to loose you! I would have nothing. Noah kissed Luke's hand and Luke woke up. Noah is that you? Yeah, Luke it's me. Noah let go of Luke's hand. He stood up and began to walk away. I could leave if you want me to. Noah said. No! Luke grabbed Noah's hand. I want you to stay Noah! But how could you look at me without seeing my dad? Noah asked Because you are not him! Luke answered. Plus your dad is not as hot as you are. Noah smiled. That was the smile that Luke fell in love with. There was no way that he could ever see his father in the face of the man that he loves. But why would you want me anywhere near you? As long as I am around you will be in danger! Noah, as long as you want to be with me... Noah paused unable to speak. His eyes watered and he had to fight back tears. Luke why wouldn't I want to be with you? Look at me Noah! I can't walk I can barley move without falling over! I never looked at you and said, " now that is one fine walk he has!" Luke, I looked at you and said "that Luke Snyder, he is one strong, confident and handsome guy, that I have not just fallen for but, that I can't live without. Noah walked closer to Luke. Luke grabbed Noah's hand as he pulled Noah closer. He could see the tears in Noah's eyes for the first time. Come closer to me, please? Luke asked. Noah leaned closer to the bed. He could tell by the look in Luke's eyes that he wanted to be much closer, Noah moved so close that he could smell the cookies on his breath. Noah knew that he was in a public place but he had learned in the last twenty four hours that once you found love, you needed to keep that love as close to you as possible. Noah kissed Luke. He wanted Luke he needed Luke's tender lips against his. Luke wrapped his arms around Noah's neck as he felt his way through his mouth. Noah got into the bed beside Luke wanting more, knowing that he was not able to give himself to Luke would have saddened him if he did not have him there next to him. Noah felt the exercise papers on the bed he picked them up. He broke the kiss and looked at the papers and back at Luke. So when do we start? Noah asked/ We? Luke repeated. Yes we, I'll ask you again when do we start? Noah repeated. Oh Noah! Luke said. As they kissed again, Luke had no doubts about who or what Noah wanted, he wanted him, he really wanted him!