Date: Tue, 27 Nov 2001 12:25:32 EST
From: BRANDYNODIE@aol.com
Subject: You Can Call Me Selfish, But All I Want is Your Love Prologue

Pairings: Top Secret! You'll have to read it to find out.

Disclaimer: Rated R or Rated X which means alot of sex, foul language and
lots of swearing between gay or bi men.  This does not mean backstreet boys
or Nsync are gay or bi. It is fictional. I don't know any of them. oh no
sex scenes until chapter 1. I hope ya all enjoy.

You Can Call Me Selfish, 
But All I Want Is Your Love

Prologue

    27 year old Howie Dorough had been keeping secrets from his best friend 
Alexander James Mclean since they started the group called BSB.
    "D, Is something wrong?" Aj asked him worried about his friend. Out of 
the blue Howie took Aj in his arms and passionately french kissed his best 
friend on his hot dry lips. "What the fuck are you doing you fucking 
asshole!" 
Aj screamed as he pushed Howie off of him. 
    "Oh shit, I'm sorry Alex,I didn't mean it." Howie said now in tears. "Is 
your being gay is what is bothering you?" Aj asked calmly. "Not the only 
thing bothering me,I'm in love with you,I'd should never of showed you what 
been bothering me, cause now you hate me bone." Howie sobbed on a the table 
on the tour bus. 
    "I could never hate you D, I just in shock and i don't know what i'm 
feeling right now." Aj took Howie in his arms and hugged his best friend.
 "I can't be around you right now Aj as Howie got off the couch and stormed 
to his bunk. After Howie left the couch Aj popped a boner which Kevin saw and 
also popped a boner. Kevin snuck up on Aj and started kissing his neck then 
grabbed Aj's hard fat 9 inch 4 inch around uncut clothed cock with his left 
hand cupping Aj's balls with his right hand which Aj moaned.    "Oh god Howie 
that feels good. "Um Alex,I'm not Howie,I'm Kevin." Aj pushed Kevin's hand 
away angrily. "What the fuck are you doing grabbing my cock Kevin,You're 
married for christ sake." Aj screamed. "I want you to fuck me Aj?" Kevin said 
smiling. "Have you lost your fucking mind Kevin?" Aj asked all pissed off and 
disgusted when he heard Howie sobbing from his bunk."No,I want you inside me 
Alex." Kevin said honestly. "I can't it'll break Howie and Kristin's hearts, 
Howie admitted to being in love with me." Aj explained. Howie was standing 
there hearing Aj blow Kevin off. "How dare you try to get Aj to fuck you!" 
Howie roared with anger in his voice. "I want Aj to fuck me as you fuck him." 
Kevin said smirking at his bandmate.
    "Are you fucking crazy,You are fucking married Kevin!" Howie screamed. 
"I've filed for a divorce because i think i'm gay." Kevin said. 
    "Oh my god!" Brian gasped from behind Kevin. "Cuz,I'm sorry." Kevin said 
to Brian as he turned around to face his cousin to explain everything to him. 
Brian went up to him and punched him when Nick came out of the bathroom with 
a confused look on his face.
    "What the hell is going on?" Nick asked. "This fag told Howie and Aj that 
he might be gay,what a sin!" Brian shouted. Nick went pale then ran off in 
tears. "Nice going Brian,Nick is gay and calling Kevin a fag mean Nick  Aj 
and I are 1 also." Howie screamed. "Oh shit!" Brian ran off to find Nick on 
the tour bus. When Brian found Nick he was curled up in a ball on his bunk in 
tears. "Nicky,I didn't mean it,I was angry and i reacted terribly and i'm 
sorry." Brian said frowning. "You find gays disgusting,then i guess you think 
me Aj,Howie and Kevin are disgusting, And to think i fell in love with a 
complete asshole who only cares about what the bible says is wrong!" Nick 
screamed. "You're in love with me?" Brian asked now ashamed of what he said 
about how being gay is a sin. "I did and now i hate you,so leave me alone." 
Nick screamed.
    "Nicky,Please forgive me, I love you." Brian said not realizing that he 
admitted to loving Nick.
Nick stared at him with anger and confusion in his dark blue eyes. "If you 
loved me then you would never of said what you said earlier Brian." Nick said 
trying to be as calm as he possible.    "I'm not gay, but i might be bi." 
Brian admitted. "Then y would you say being gay is a sin if you might be 
bisexual Brian." Nick asked.
    "Because I didn't know how i felt until i almost lost you Nick,Please 
forgive me, I promise i'll never say anything mean as long as i live." Brian 
begged with hot tears now spilling down his face. Nick looked at him then 
turn away from him. "I can't forgive you right now Brian, I need to be alone 
for awhile. "Oh god Nicky,I'm sorry. Brian sobbed next to a now sleeping Nick 
Carter.